Him again

NO AIR ! ♥
LOL. It is him again. I joined the congress is actually because it was his birthday then i can keep myself occupied so i can don't think about him. Why is it him ? I am sick and tired of him. Please can you slowly move out my life ? I cannot survive going through this whole " forgetting him " by myself. I want someone to help ! But who ? I cannot take it. I very felt so hard to breathe. I don't even feel like thinking about anything.

How can I breath without air air air ?
How can you be without me ?
I don't seem to be able to survive without you.
I want help.
Who can be there for me to catch me when i fall ?
Who will forever be there for me ?
Who is the one that is meant for me ?
Who will love me and care about me forever ?
Why don't I get what I want ?
Why can't things last ?
Why don't I have faith ?
Should I accept him ?