I tittled it " Untittled " cause I really don't know what to type..
How to say.. I am just recently very confused. I knew obviously not very happy today. Even Val told me today that I looked like I am very stressed up. But WHY ? I actually also don't know. I seems to bottle up a lot of things recently. I obviously cannot tell it to Zul. But wanting me to tell Shiny. I don't know why. I cannot do it like before. After she became Exco and not sitting beside me, I reliase I don't love her as much as last time. Her words sometimes hurted me deeply. I was so surprised that Jiayi was actually the one that cheered me up through like a saying. Weird.
I cannot feel my happiness anymore in school. I realise at home, I felt a bit better. Just who I am ^^ In school, I am still me. But not very me. What the heck am I saying ? Things change over time. I don't like that. I like things to be the way there are. But it looks like things does change. Maybe why I am not that happy is because I am still undergoing the accepting process. But I somehow saw the end to it. =)
I saw him today. The funny thing was I was shocked. Want to see him again. And thats all. It wasn't that strong like it was. I think I afterall don't like him that much. If he said that to the PRIMARY SCH Me, I would cry my heart out and probably want to die. Feeling like thousand of needles poking into my heart. And just to difficult to breathe. But I am not longer like that.
I actually quite envy those happy-go-lucky people like YIJIA and ZIYING !! They are so strong. But as humans, they will definitely have something like that cannot be ok about. But they are always smiling. I WANT TO BE LIKE THEM !! Seriously, I am jealous ! haha. But I am try to improve myself !! =) IMPROVEMENT IS IMPORTANT AFTER A FALL ^^ by eunice lim =)
Maybe is the homework load, project due date and stuff that I don't want and I am forced to do. But SUPER AWESOME EUNICE LIM CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING !! Think about it even a nine months relationship break up I can come over what more ? =) hehe.
However still, my clique ♥ don't seem to be bonded recently ! We really need some bonding session !! ONLY US !! ^^ haha. I was actually very happy when I heard Amanda said that ZUL YOU KNOW YOU OFFENDED ALMOST EVERYONE IN OUR CLIQUE ♥ ! haha AWESOME ^^
Zul ya. Shiny might be right. Zul isn't my best table partner. But it is ok !! ^^ He obviously don't prefer me over SOMEONE ESLE !! haha. But i try to be a better table partner. =) hehe.
About being with Shiny ? Hmmm.. It is still under discussion. =) Results will be known later. ^^
